don't people think about life changing decisions anymore? Suck it up and tough it out, you'll be the better man for it. Besides it's only a few years, it's will pass in a flash...
Don't do what some dumb-arsed Recurit did when I was in Boot Camp.... (long before "don't ask - Don't tell crap")
This moron Recruit decided he didn't want to continue after his first week so he comes up with this "brilliant Idea" to tell his Drill Instructor during "Quiet Time" a "personal detail"
Well for you non-Marines, during Quiet Time you had one hour a day to catch up on your letter writing, studying, etc, anything but talking, and making noise... You could hear pins drop in the squad bay. Well up trots the afore mentioned Recurit, he knocks on the hatch asking the DI for permission to speak.... first mistake.
The DI comes out.... the Recurit says, with all of us listening.... "Sir, this Recurit is GAY. Sir" Second mistake.
Dead Silence.....
So Drill Instructor SSGT Prados drops trou and says "Great, my wifes away for the weekend.... PROVE IT" without cracking a smile...
more Dead Silence....
The Recurit speechless just stood there dumbfounded....
The rest of us, where a tad bit smarter, even after a week we new better to make a sound or laugh....
DI Prados was not at all pleased....
"Ok Recurit Coc##%&*@#, if mine isn't to your liking pick one.... SHORT ARMS INSPECTION!"
In an instant 120 Recurits stood tall on our footlockers, everyone of us hoping this would end without "Proof"
Happy Ending for us, he was not Gay or at least unwilling to prove his skills. Relife shortly came back to our young lives. But "Recruit Coc#$%^&*!" had a few more days of out right living hell to pay before being bounce out of the Corps.
So Don't do anything Stupid, if you really don't want to do it, then make a few calls. But if it's just "butterflies" rest assured we all had doubts we made the right desision. Your not alone. You will have to make a lot of tough desicions in your life, don't strat off by running away from your fears, step up and learn to overcome them.